woot. so anyway working on a new painting. no idea when i will finish it. no idea how it will turn out. i has no wicked/mad/amazing painting skillz. so we will see how this will turn out.

well, just feeling sad. no idea why. i think its because i am human.

ok denise, stop feeling sorry for yourself... nope i can't help it.

these days.. something wrong with me. i sleep early (11.30) and i wake up and absurd hours like 12 or 1 in the afternoon. though, this morning i slept at 6.30 and woke up at 1.00.. >< it was bad i must have been tired.. didnt even hear the cleaning lady drop by my room. (and she makes a huge racket with the metal bin when she empties it, so it usually wakes me up)

terrible. procrastinating.. i know somehow i'll make it through my exams.. but so much happening. think i feel a bit squashed. and there isn't anyone that i feel i can share it with except on dA cos.. well i hardly know any of my friends here, but what i do know of them is they are all nice, and nobody really remembers what people write in journals anyway. so this will be forgotten soon after its read. which i rather like. just as long as i get to write something down and try to make myself feel better.

well, since they are coming and ive been feeling down as i usually do during exams.. i think i need some colour in my life. as much as i love black and white, its spring.. i think that warrants some sort of change in my life.. even a little. so i shall challenge myself to use more colour in my work. and less dismal themes. though where that will take my work.. ive no idea.

my sister really likes the cutesy stuff i draw *slight cringe here* and sometimes she says she looks at it and how happy it looks.. well.. that is if im in that sort of mood i suppose. or it could be so happy that it was sad. if you get my meaning.

anyway, its kinda lonesome and boring in my hall room because its easter and my neighbour went home for the holidays.. i keep trawling facebook/msn hoping to find people to chat to. however, everyone has exams and we are all trying to study.. >< well.. i don't feel comforted that most of my friends haven't started studying yet. partially because i don't believe them. ahh well. i will pull through this. just need God. all the time.

to get to the point, its not exactly the happy mood sort of thing that i will tend to draw now. however, maybe if i try to draw something to make me feel better i will get a happy mood.

ah. i will stop the rambling here.

yay an update!

um my back hurts cos a heavy file fell on my head 2 weeks ago. it still hurts...

why?

anyway i think i write more morbid sounding stuff when im tired, or mostly cos the exams are coming.

yes.

its bad. bad times (well not really) and bad dreams (plenty of those)

edit: my scanner is working again.. not sure how come. i used to try and access it by using the utility on my computer, but it didnt work. and then pressing the button didnt work. and now it works again. its good that it works again. so i wont complain too much. unless it stops working.. or maybe it was an outdated driver.